Is it love at first sight? No, it can’t be. I don’t believe in love at first sight; plus it was more of a matter of “irritation at first conversation”.
Is it infatuation? Nope.
Maybe it’s a plain-old-crush. Yes! That is what it seems to be.
How did I go from sheer irritation to crush mode in under a week? Funny thing, I honestly just decided to like him instead of having him get under my skin every time he opened his mouth.
Now here is the conundrum of this whole situation. When I feel these strange “crush-frenzy” feelings coming on, I react one of 2 ways:
- Blush and get giddy. Never ceasing to smile and lapping up every word.
- Get all serious and business like. Not really smiling and ignoring the poor guy to the point of him thinking that I don’t care for him at all! Yet, all the while I’m hyper aware of him. Aware of any fleeting glances that might come my way.
Hopeless is what I am, when it comes to the matters of the heart. It’s so lovely and extremely confusing to experience these gushing emotions that make me feel like a 13 y/o girl at a Justin Bieber concert. Oh not to mention, embarrassing. Some days I feel like it would be better if I didn’t feel these feelings at all!
Thankfully I realise that should I want a relationship, this is just part and parcel of what I need to go through to get there.
So what’s my way forward to avoid this crush frenzy feelings? No cooking clue! But I shall certainly take it each day as it comes, each crush as they come my way. Hoping to keep a level head amidst all the crush-frenzy.
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